我知道
哭 是无补于事的
但是
我还是控制不到我自己
忽然觉得
怎么自己变得那么的软弱
好像不是以前的我
怎么知道sem 2 成绩
就这么眼浅
一点点就哭
就这一晚
泪流了几次
我....不知道发生什么事
不会去跟老妈说
总觉得，他就会去 zat 我
常看到我 FB, 看戏
成绩差也是理所当然的
在家人面前，我好像若无其事的
但是在他们没看到的一角
我是多么的痛苦
很多的不明白
blog 成了我倾诉的地点
某人
成了我的倾诉对象
一旦陷进去了就很无法自拔 虽然知道不该也不能这样可是不管别人怎样安慰都还是开心不起来 你需要的时间慢慢复原 急不得~
这句话
感动了我
谢谢你~~
还有吖
某人
我不会喜欢你的咯
不要自恋啦~haha
给鱼的一封信
爱情是麻木的
但是你的行为
不知是叫浪漫 还是痴情
朋友一场
我还是觉得你太过火了
可以收点点吗？
我，我们，都觉得很不舒服
对不起
这个可能是你的自由
我还是觉得尊重自己，尊重他人 是很重要的
希望
你能尽早抽离吧~
=蒙=
18 July 13
一整天都没有老师进班的一天
在Physics lab做实验的一天
不知怎么的
突然emo起来
就，不想讲话，只想一个人坐着
脑袋却是一片空白
我....好像越来越不了解自己了
CH，CM 就问
你zomok emo
我..不会回答
J 搞笑的说，你在emo，我就“打你”
好吧~为了搞笑的你们，我就笑了笑
我没事
早上跟MHD 说了点心事
说，为什么成绩会酱
很心痛
眼泪就在眼框打转
我还是走回去做实验吧
不然...我就不知会发生什么事了
这几天
心情很容易被影响
动不动就emo，不然就很stress
真的很难受
LMC!!!
回来吧
不要再这样继续下去了...
**话说
昨天某人找到我的blog
他就成了我的stalker
想着想着
每人需要有一个代号
为的是，不要让某人知道这么清楚
呵呵~
**给某人的话
你最近成了我心事的述说者...
17 July 13
PA class
when I meet with Cikgu Nik
Really feel very sorry to him
said sorry to him through FB
somehow..I can looked thru that he's very disappointed about our result (my result)
Dunno why
had some talk with Cindy
another serious girl in the class..teehee
almost cry that time
I hold my tears..did not let them drop..
We had the same thoughts
These few days
Cindy asked the link of my blog
and told me that she viewed once my blog
interested of my "life"..haha
Still thinking..
want to let her to stalk me or not..haha
After PA lessons
feel emo suddenly
Tung saw my emo face and tried to tell me some joke
that he went to toilet when the cleaner is cleaning the toilet
but his shoes were torn..and water get....haha
Well...I laughed
just don't want other feel scary because of my emo face
Thanks friend ^^
16 July 13
Tear
Finally tears came out from me..
I thought I won't cry for the result, for the stress
Somehow..
When I'm in the corner with nobody
only FB and drama
I cried..
Thanks to KS that willing to accompany me
tried to comfort me..
Thanks.. :)
The way he said was like..hmm
"I dunno how to comfort ppl"
"I dun like girls cry, becoz I'll cry also"
He told me that I looked so sad after got the result
But I already try to cover it by laughing like a sha po
But when the time I dun laugh
can looked through I'm sad.. :/
OK..
I'll and I do tell myself
only 3 months left
dun make myself regret
MEI CHIN..U CAN DO IT!!!
6 July 2013
Saw secretary of Girl Guide posted a post said that
Pls bring RM 20 on Monday to pay 4 your girl guides t-shirt! It's compulsory 4 all girl guides... Pls spread this message 2 your friends...
Then saw a member commented
I'm not interested..It's about wasting money
Well
Out of sudden I posted another post said that
Attention to everyoneThe girl guide t-shirt is compulsory for everyoneU have to wear it on Jamuan timeNo t-shirt, No entry, No sijilAny argument please deal with Pn ParamesWe are just do what we suppose to doThanks.
Then I saw that member criticized about us..The committee
I did any wrong ?
Member, I just want u to know that
That's just the order from teacher
We are just doing what we suppose to do
Our responsible..Do you understand?
Hopefully it won't make any misunderstand from this
Some how the words that the member said is a bit harsh for me
How to be a leader?
To handle all these?
To solve these problem?
Hmm..
I still have a long way to learn..
4 July 13
LUAN
this word able to describe my feeling
seriously..my thought now..messy and unorganized
WELL...I'm thinking of camping, retake, MUET exam, SEM 3
too many for me
What I should do now and next?
Can anyone tell me?
I seriously feel tired right now
Somehow, I can only tell people and myself
I'm Fine, I'm just tired.
MUET speaking exam ended yesterday
I tried my best for it..hopefully this paper can pull up my overall marks..
Some incident happened before speaking test
an Indian guy came late and make our original group gone..
changed from candidate B to A..what a moment
I felt like to punch that guy..
WELL..this is my fate..I have to accept it
Bestiee finally officially together with Siew
congratzz yar :D
haha..I'm still forever alone here..
